Reconcile

It’s been a year, I’m better now.
And I’ve prayed for a better day
That finally arrived in the form of an apology
That I gave to you as well as myself.
And I’m sorry.

I crossed boundaries and internalized struggles
That weren’t in my power to resolve
And I tore myself up trying to fix the broken pieces
In a puzzle that could never be solved
On my own.

And those months in between were the worst I imagined
Invisible pain from the recollection of the past
Hidden under unfounded optimism
And no amount of gratitude could erase the fact
That I couldn’t help you.

But I never gave up
And I’m glad you didn’t either.
For I know that there’s still a plan
Perhaps not together
But for good.

I’m a wide-eyed idealist
And I’ll always look on the bright side
And even with all of this craziness I smile
For I’m happy to once again call you
My friend.